Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Where is the la la la la love

St Valentines Day is just around the corner and I have been wondering what this actually means. As one gets older the significance of this day becomes less and less relevant as you get a partner (who hopefully shows you their love everyday) or grow up enough to not rest the success of yourself as a person on your success on this one day. For me I have a long standing love of the day of love. Firstly because I like presents and secondly because I don't want those people who call it a commmercialised holiday to get off scott free - they must show love, and they must do it on Feb 14th. UPDATE : - I got a dozen roses and a t-shirt that says "this is what a socialist looks like." I am so happy.

Over the last 20 something years of my life I have had several painful valentines day experiences - from relationships breaking up (several times on this one day!) to complete denial that the day exisits with stupid excuses like "I show you love all year baby!" and I am thinking "then where the f**k are my flowers?"
So as next Tuesday approaches I feel nervous - will my relationship end? Will I get flowers? Will I be told "its a commercialised holiday - get over it." The pressure is building up and I can't for the life of me think of what to get my partner.
Will they even want a gift if they don't believe in Valentines day? but I can't not get a gift because then how can I assert my right to one."

Can you see, dear reader, my problem.
And how can you not 'believe' in Valentines day anyway - It exisits - the newspaper tells me so (well the advertising sections of glossy magazines at least).

How do you manage this day? Is it pressure, stress? Or am I over analysing this whole thing? but without this day you may never get gifts of love. My best friends boyfriend does not 'buy into' Valentines day and she has been hinting about diamond earrings for years - but does she have them... no she doesn't. Damn you St Valentine - look at what you have done!